Well, we all know what God did in six days in Genesis, so I'm hopeful for what he's going to do in the next six days for me and a certain lovely woman I miss so much. I'm not sure if I'm going to post like a countdown over the next 6 days or not, I just know that I have more of an urge to write now. Today was rough. Thoughts just popped in my head today about giving up and just letting it whither away. I found myself wondering if she doesn't show...how would that effect my faith, considering I obeyed God to deliver the letter to begin with. Its become a mental battle that is getting harder to deal with as the 24th grows closer.
I find myself wondering the opposite too...not about her not showing up, but when my wife does show up. How can I show her love? I don't think she truly understands how much she's been prayed for and cared about over the past 8 months now. She has no real idea how much I've changed. All I want to do is love her and care for her now. Its just a huge change. I just want her to know...
Usually this is the point in the blog where I write that nevertheless I'm hopeful and I'm believing, and while I am all these things, it doesn't fit. I'm truly nervous... I'm fighting to keep hope....fighting to keep believing in what the Lord has shown me. Six more days to go...
3 comments:
God's grace will be with you...no matter what happens, Derek. Seek His face and don't turn away from looking into it!
I was reading in Zephaniah this morning and I thought of you when I read:
"The Lord your God is in the midst of you, a Mighty One, a Savior [Who saves]! He will rejoice over you with joy; He will rest [in silent satisfaction] and in His love He will be silent and make no mention [of past sins, or even recall them]; He will exult over you with singing." - Zephaniah 3:17 AMP
He is Mighty to Save. Thank you for the encouragement. I've needed it the past couple days.
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