Tuesday, March 22, 2011

The Struggling Man

When I went through my divorce, one of the first issues I had to deal with was how to be the godly man a wife needs. The truth is I failed miserably in many aspects of that marriage, and now that I’m remarried I struggle to figure out what to do in many situations. Sometimes I can’t decide what to do. I just sit there paralyzed, trying to figure out what action to take. What do I say, what do I do? How do I do what’s best for Jenn to show her love?

A husband’s love is supposed to be sacrificial according to the Bible, but what do you do in situations where making the sacrifice feels like you’re doing more harm than good? I know, I know, prayer is supposed to be the answer, but to be honest, sometimes I pray and I don’t feel as though I’m getting an answer. Of course, I know that isn’t true. I guess in many ways I’m just struggling under the responsibility of being the husband that God calls me to be. I’m afraid of failure. I don’t want to ever hold Jenn back from God or anything that she’s driven to do. As always, prayers are appreciated.