What I Want...

I've rarely spoken about what I want in relationships. I've always had some kind of soap box to jump on to about the Lord and the church, but I guess for once I'm just feeling the need to share what I want or maybe what I hope for. It's difficult for me to lay down my heart about women for the public to read. A few out there might even believe I don't deserve a second chance in view of my past failures. However, I feel the need to define what it is I want in a woman and let me make it clear that through the resurrecting power of Christ, I do deserve a second chance at a life with someone.

I want a woman who is her own person. I don't want a twin, but a partner. I want a woman who is willing to take risks. The entire Christian walk is a risk, and to me an unwillingness to take risks represents a lack of faith in the Lord's care. Honestly, that's an area I have to pray about everyday too. I want a woman who is fine with me sharing my heart about how I feel about them, life, and most importantly, where I believe God wants me. I'm one of the few highly emotional guys out there and I need a woman who can find it endearing instead of weird. I want a woman who is willing to let me be who I am as much as I am willing to let her be who she is. I want a woman who is logical, but is able to be in touch with her heart too. That in itself is a challenge for me because I'm always running with my heart, and therefore struggle to be logical!

I want a woman who is willing to allow me to be the hero and point them to the true Hero. I want a woman who understands that Christ did not call us to judge people, but to love them. It's okay to call out a sin...but we aren't supposed to destroy the person committing the sin. I want a woman who is able to forgive me... I am indeed a walking screw-up. I want a woman in my life that treasures the time we spend together. I used to take this for granted, but now I understand what it truly means. I want a woman who is willing to go out of her way to tell me how she feels about me. It's not fun trying to figure out smoke signals.

I want a woman who will let me treat her as I see her to be, not what she thinks she is. Satan is on a mission to destroy the wonders that God made in a woman. If a woman just sees herself as nothing beautiful, then Satan has done his job. If a man is unable to see in himself the Godly masculinity (thanks for the term Tim Buttrey) that should be there in his heart, then Satan is doing his job. Therefore, I need a woman who will let me express to her how amazing she is. I need her to understand that I'm going to see the beauty in her that God created, not the garbage that the enemy wants her to believe. I need her to let me be the knight that God intended me to be.

I guess the whole reason I write this down is to remind myself too. I've spoken with someone recently who has done a heck of a job reminding me of what I want. However, I needed to write this down on my own. I've known what I wanted for a little bit now, and I just need a record of it. I need to remember what I'm looking for and I need to be able to recognize it when I see it.