Unconditional

Today I had a bit of a bombshell dropped on me. It would seem that I learned something about someone I absolutely adore that I kind of knew but really didn't get it. When I found out, I went into typical Derek-take action mode and responded quickly, decisively, and unfortunately for me...badly. You see this person is a very special person to me. I've known her since high school...gees from the day we met we clicked. We even have nicknames for each other, and then life got in the way. We both went our separate ways and would just check in each other once in awhile.

While apart we both have faced many hardships. Most of mine, she knows....most of hers...she won't tell me. But after my ex left we rekindled our friendship and despite some drama, I've always gone back to her. She's my buddy and my best friend. She's also made much different choices then what I have and now I'm in a position where I've had to look at exactly my thought process concerning her.

Anyone who knows me, knows that I'm always quick to react. Very rarely do I take a step back and think about it. Sometimes it works well for me, and sometimes it doesn't. Today it did not work out well...my words did not come out right, my heart was not properly shown, and now my friend, who already trusts so few people as it is, seems to believe that my love for her is purely conditional. Well that couldn't be further from the truth, but perception is reality.

Jesus always loved unconditionally, regardless of what people thought of Him or how they treated Him. I want to be like that. I need to be like that. I want to be more like Jesus. He's the rescuer of our souls, and knight in shining armor that we need. I want to be like that. I want to be His representative to others. That's my prayer tonight...to become more like Him.

Tigger, as for you...I love ya....unconditionally.