It's amazing: nearly three months ago, Jenn and I were married. Hey, we even have the pictures to prove it! I can also tell you that marriage has not proven to be easy. To be honest, it's been hard at times. I've come to a point where I'm at a crossroads in my life. I remember the man I used to be, and a few certain people still find ways to question whether I've changed or grown at all. I find myself wondering if I'll ever become the man I want to be. Will I ever be the strong, loving husband Jenn needs me to be? Will I be an attentive father for the children I one day hope to have?
I remember a few months ago writing a very public prayer about my dreams, and it wasn't long after that that Jenn walked into my life. God answered my prayers, and yet here I am, months later, knowing that there is more yet to be done. So I guess I have another prayer to pray. My prayer is that God continue to repair old wounds that seem to heal ever so slowly. My prayer is that God show me how to love and communicate with my wife in such a way that she'll never forget why she married me. My prayer is that God take this union and make it strong, with no holes or weaknesses. I love my wife, and I love my God. And because I love them both, my prayer is just to become a better man. I'm flawed, eternally flawed, but yet I know there is more to me. I know, to quote the movie "Aladdin," that I am a diamond in the rough.
My goals for this year are prioritized:
A. To become a better follower of Christ;
B. To become a better husband, and to strengthen our marriage; and
C. To become a better son, brother, and uncle.
It's not just about being a better me (to quote the cliché), but it's about recognizing and learning from my mistakes, and growing as a result of them. I no longer want to be a diamond in the rough; I just want to be a diamond! Lord, please polish me and make me your diamond. That's the route I choose... I choose the future and not my past.
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Hi! Our church blog is right before yours and I out of whim pushed the next button. I wss encouraged by your want to serve Christ and have a Biblcal marriage. These verses following will encourae you to continue on. Praise God my wife and I Sarah have beent through much in our 19 years of marriage. But God has been able to use us in great ways over that time. God is ood.
Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who hath blessed us with all spiritual blessings in heavenly places in Christ: 4According as he hath chosen us in him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and without blame before him in love: 5Having predestinated us unto the adoption of children by Jesus Christ to himself, according to the good pleasure of his will, 6To the praise of the glory of his grace, wherein he hath made us accepted in the beloved. 7In whom we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, according to the riches of his grace; 8Wherein he hath abounded toward us in all wisdom and prudence; 9Having made known unto us the mystery of his will, according to his good pleasure which he hath purposed in himself:
In the Love of Christ,
Pastor Craig Evins
Trinity Baptist Church, Bullhead City, Arizona
What a beautiful post...
As regarding your goals, the wonderful thing is that as you achieve A, B & C will automatically follow.
May the Lord make His face shine upon you .. May He bless your marriage, drawing you both closer to Him and bring you peace always.
I praise God for your honest blogs , I don't think poeple realize when they blog the impact it makes on others, even if they are just sort of stopping by . However I'm blessed to say that everywhere i have looked as of late has lead me to wonderful , insightful and honesty in individuals daily walk and maintenance in the Lord and it lets me know I'm not alone. So thank you for your obedience to the Lord and I want to follow you, however i can't seem to find a place to do so,lol. I'll keep trying though. Does your wife have a blog as well?
I am striving to be a a more dutiful child and mother to my wonderful three gifts the Lord has allowed me to have in my life.
I appreciate all the comments...they are definitely an encouragement!!!
Oh and yes my wife has a blog as well....though since the wedding day we've been slow to update it. Here is her blog address: www.jennciapala@blogspot.com
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