As long as I can remember, anytime I have been confronted with a mistake, I have reflected on it and tried to make amends for them. I have never been too proud to confess my shortcomings, many of which have been discussed in my blog, and yet recently I faced accusations that stated I was doing still doing things that I used to do when married. It forced me to do something I have grown unaccustomed to: I had to defend myself to someone that I believed to be one of my best friends.
What do you do when someone accuses you of things you know are not true, even if this person will not detail them? What do you, when as a Christian, it gets to the point where your Christianity is being questioned? How do you react when a person you trust ends your friendship based on these accusations? What do you do when the person’s alleged source for making these accusations is beyond reproach?
Every time I search my heart I come up with the same answers: I have always been open and real with people. I do not hide my flaws from anyone. When I sin, I repent and move forward with honesty. Why would anyone accuse me otherwise now? The life I live now is a complete change from how I used to be. Even if I make similar mistakes to the ones I made when I was married, I do not hide them like I used to. I take accountability for them and I confess them, then I take actions to prevent it from happening again. How am I the same? How have I not changed? I am confused and hurt. I feel betrayed and bewildered. Where do I go from here?
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